behind every little things

" there's a little truth behind every 'JUST KIDDING',

a little knowledge behind every ' I DON'T KNOW',

a little emotion behind every ' I DON'T CARE',

and a little pain behind 'IT'S OKAY' "

Road not taken

It is in every little girls dreams to be Cinderella, Belle, Snow White, Rapunzel, Ariel, and the list goes on.

When every little girl wanted to be a princess, I kinda hoped to become a vampire.

When most of the girls wanted to dress like princesses, I wanted to cut my hair short and wear shirt with baggy shorts.

 

identity crisis

Gosh! I've been thinking lately. a lot. so not Ismatul, right? yeah, so not. Its giving me headache. guess this is the stage where we are trying to figure out what we want to be, what should we be and what we want others to see us as and whats not. its annoying you see. on the second thought, not really annoying. its actually confusing. is it important for us to have an identity? duhh.. need me to answer that? before, i don't really care about this. i mean, just be whatever you want to be as long as you are real. you are not being fake. you are being who you are. but i guess it doesn't work that way. we are living in this world with others too, so we have to consider people around us as well. not that you have to be someone people around you want you to be. pretty confusing huh? lets just put it this way, be someone you think you want to be and you want others to see as but just don't annoy people and don't mess with others. in other words, jadilah apepun just xpayah nak susahkan idup orang lain. However, it is advisable for us to be good people. that way, we'll live a happy life and we wont regret it in our lives later on. don't you think so? and one more thing, along the way we can learn things from others' experiences. i mean, look at your nearest role models. example, parents. do you want to be like them? in my case, yes. i  want to be like them. we can learn from them, can we? learn how to behave, how to socialise and so on. if you want people to respect you, be and act as someone who you think deserve to be respected. well, respect is something you have to earn, not to demand. i'm not writing here to nag or give advice to anyone. more like i'm talking to myself. i've been thinking a lot lately, yet i don't know where to spill all my thoughts. guess, this is when a blog can be useful to me huh? gosh, i'm missing my family so bad, one of the reasons as to why i've been doing a lot of thinking. okla, makan time!

xoxo.

Al-fatihah

I am not happy.. Hukk :( feels like I have tonnes of probs. miss my family at the same time. feel bad about myself. scared. worried. *sigh* Dear Allah, help me go through all this. help me.

Give me Ya Allah

Give me iman and victory

Give me Ya Allah

Give me strength to set us free

As we struggle on your path

Mujahideen

Grant us Ya Allah

The eyes to see your light

And show us Ya Allah

What is wrong and what is right

As we walk along your path

 

Note: Al-fatihah buat arwah Mas Afzal Masarudin yang baru saja kembali ke rahmatullah, semoga Allah merahmati rohnya. InsyaAllah..

moh kite!

     Yayy! Its holiday! finally :) I'm very very happy. the term has come to an end. Bid goodbye to the first term and HAYLOOOO winter hols! 

gosh, I'm very grateful that today went well. I guess. showed my assignment to Pam and it was good*sounds promising*, according to her. Alhamdulillah. hopefully the result will be OK too. or maybe not just OK, better than that. I hope. Mandarin test went well too. Alhamdulillah jugak! so, I'm gonna enjoy the rest of today and go to bed early because, Germany is waiting for me tomorrow! yayyy! nak pegi jalan sampai lebam then, hopefully I'll be starting up fresh for the new term, InsyaAllah :) ahh, one more good news to share, Danny has got a job interview! pray that he'll do well. and pray that Eijum (my big sister) will get the job offer from the company she went for interview. 

     And yeah, talked to my mum on the phone just now. and my lil' sister too this afternoon. I'm very happy that I talked to them. I miss them sooo much! unfortunately, my lil' sis doesn't feel well. I'll pray for your well being sis. hope you get better soon. Mama and abah, make sure both of you come and visit us here as promised. and I'm glad that u both are well and happy. Thanks for you prayer for us and Danny. we'll always mention both of u in our prayer as well.* hugsss*

   So, I already packed my things. hope that nothing is missing because I don't wanna waste my money buying those missing things in Germany. especially owing to the fact that stuffs in Germany are much more expensive compared to the stuffs in the UK. One more thing, I hope our hols' plan will go as planned. what plan? I'm not telling. I don't wanna jinx it. lols! to friends in Canterbury, see you guys in a month time! Sayonara, Canterbury! don't miss me because I'm no good to you :P

Je t'aime^^

Salut! Paris ohh Paris...romantic, beautiful, historical city? not quite so...

canon cyber-shot pn bole bokeh la....

We were there during our summer holidays 2010 before we went back to Malaysia. We spent 4 days 3 nites in the outskirt of Paris. we weren't that far from the town centre though. The famous Moulin Rouge was near by but we haven't got the chance 2 go in n watch the show as the price of the ticket was stupidly expensive(stupid bcoz I can't afford it..*sigh*).. Anyhow, Paris was really...i mean really2 'indah khabar dari rupa' *sigh lagi*... Slalu orang kate bestnye klau dapat g paris, especially klau dapat honeymoon kt paris sbb paris romantik, cantik, grand...duh~ plisss la... Yes Eiffel Tower was magnificent, BUT as we spent our time there, I realised that it was rather annoying. Every step we made, there will always be a macha or a blackie (what are u, a racist??) came to us and offered us...ermm...actually they persuaded us in the annoying kinda way to buy some key chains of Eiffel Tower and even wine from them. 1 good thing about that was, we managed to get ourselves a pretty great bargain for the key chains tho.haha.. But wait for it, as soon as you've settled your business with one macha, the other machas will come to you offering and again persuading you to buy the same things you'd just bought from his friends. That was another annoying part..haish..

The story of 'indah khabar dari rupa of Paris' didn't end there. Here comes the worst part of it, the subway in Paris was really2 horrible, smelly and so damn disgusting. It was horrible owing the fact that the service was unreachable in certain part of the city. We have to get on a bus to reach our destination. I would say, London and Munich have way better service. Another thing, when we was walking underground in the subway to get to another line service, I saw a man doing a business that was supposed to be done in the TOILET. The man took a piss at one corner while other people were rushing to get in a tram. No wonder the subways there smell like a public toilet in Malaysia..it's not too much for me to say that some people there are clearly uncivilized and are undoubtedly left out from the modernized world...aiaiai~

Okla...enuff with the nasty part of Paris. Skg nk cerita pasal pe yg bestnye Paris ni. Paris best sebab ade Disneyland!huhuhu.. tu je la yg best.. Here are some pics of me n my sweetie kat Disneyland Paris. Anyhow, it was a blast going there with my cutie girl ni. Actually Disneyland Paris is in one of her to-do-list. Wish granted...but still lots more to go ^.^ next year pnye summer hols blom decide lg nk g mane, but for sure we'll have tons of fun together again.weeehooo!~

I'm the buffest of all.muahahaha!~

those up there were some of the pictures taken when we were in Paris. Particularly at Notre Dame, The Lourve, Eiffel tower and Paris Disneyland~

-danny-

How would you describe an APPLE?

Christchurch is still close today. So it means 2 days off since yesterday. yayy me! Technically, bile kite diberikan cuti, kite mestilah menggunakan cuti itu sebaik-baiknya. So, don't bother doing your assignment. Because it's a day, it's a day, it's a holi-holiday!

*drooling my eyes* pretending not to have any assignment to be handed in next Wednesday, which is according to the Islamic and Gregorian calendar will be in 5 days time,  I began to spend my days off wisely (too long for a sentence, right? I don't care.haha).

A wisely thought question: How would you describe an apple? I came across this after reading "The Oxbridge Questions". An interesting book which I bought a long time ago at The Works, kedai buku yang sangat laa best. Buku dah nak bersawang, baru nak start baca. So, lets get back to the question.

How would you describe an apple?

From New York City to Macintosh computers, apple stands for everything from the true knowledge to all that wholesome, all in a tidy little package. A child is the 'apple of his parents' eyes'. A good kid gone rotten is described as 'a bad apple'. In fact, apples are pretty much everything you want them to be. It all depends on you and way you describe them.

Different people has different interpretation of an apple. How far is this true? if you are...

an artist, you might describe an apple as a roundish fruit, about the size of tennis ball. not quite round though. a shallow one at the bottom, deeper one at the top where the stalk is attached. some have glossy and waxy look, while others look rougher and densely coloured. vary in hue, from whitish green to golden yellow, from russet brown to bright crimson. and there goes all the colours you can and even cannot find in the world.

a mathematician, you might come out with a description from a different angle. this would be tricky and complicated because there are variable of shapes of apples likewise shapes themselves. might be simpler to describe its shape as 'apploid'. we might even be smart enough to come up with an equation for the so called apploid. but, this might provoke all the students from around the world's anger. obviously because they are now burdened with one more equation to be learnt and memorised. I know it will because I'm a student. I always blame those clever philosophers who came up with all the new findings and equations.

an organic chemist, might describe an apple as an arrangement of cellulose in cells containing water, sugars,acid,vitamins,minerals and so forth. Damn, I'm good. LOLS~ mind you, I just did something related to this for my assignment.

a mythologist, could describe an apple in many many many ways. duhh, MYTHologist. pretty much, every culture has its own special apple stories. one that I heard, Golden Apple were the fruits of the Greek Tree of Life, correct me if I'm wrong. but, definitely not Malay. not that we are being racist but, it's just that apple is not the kind of fruit that grows in Malaysia.

a greengrocer might describe apple as sweet and crisp fruit, delicious, juicy, etc.

a cook might add that apple is a versatile fruit, which can be used in many kind of dishes such as apple pie and apple crumble.

you, you know who, apple is a buah, a fruit, simple as it is :)

disappointed audience, apple might be a critical movie or theatre reviews.

Isaac Newton, its a matter of gravity.

and there are many more definitions of an apple that can be written if I am to include them here. no offense to those other people, ok?

so my point here is, different people has different school of thought. different people sees different things. hence, we should not think of ourselves as superior and that we know it all and we are always right. look at things from different point of views, you'll be surprised as I am now.

tak percaya? look back, this long entry is actually just about a fruit called 'apple'. right? *wink*

note: as for me, I think apple is a fruit which is, if taken daily, it'll ruin Doc's business! cheers!

jadual dewan makan, you are what you eat!

my food-wish list that is to be fulfilled before the end of my winter holiday, howkay??
berikut adalah kemahuan tummy beta:

• nasi beriyani
• nasi minyak
• nasi tomato
• nasi arab
• ayam masak merah (wajib)
• asam pedas pengasusfillet! 
• sambal belacan dannymiowmiow(would be nice to go with ayam berempah danny gak)
• kuah lodeh
• sambal ikan bilis/sambal tumis udang
• nasi lemak danymiowmiow
• ayam kismis (jom try wat lagi!)
• ayam black pepper(yang ni is masak :p)
• nasi goreng kampung kamu yg best itu
• ikan tige rase/sweet&sour/steam? (try wat guna pengasusfillet gak leh tak?)
• rendang ayam (kate raye krismas kan)
• padprik

 

This is what I can come up with at the moment. I might be adding more in the menu, ok. Don't worry *wink*

blessed snow

class was canceled due to the bad weather. the cancellation hurt me bad. I was upset. frustrated. furious.and there goes all the verbs in the dictionary. i'm just kidding. gile tak happy happy meal?? it wasn't a teeny weeny bit of joy that I felt. it was in fact a blessing, duhh~  they whacked me with the lucky stick this morning, i guess. and, they whacked me good yo!

I was kinda hoping for the class to be canceled today. Really. wasn't my initial intention to go to class today. but I knew I had to, since I already played truant last Friday. but luckily,  class really was canceled then! motherly instinct?? nahh.. more like, a lazy-bum-student instinct :) seronok yang tak terkata. but i did say something after knowing the whole campus was closed because of the snow. "U tutup sampai bile eyh? esok tutup lagi tak?". see, how concern I was. 

Thought of continuing my disturbed-sleep. but before I went back to sleep, thought why should I waste my effort bangun awal pagi, mandi and got dressed, right? put on my boots and...

jakun :)

asda moment :P

kejakunan makin terserlah :P

1 more week and I'll be off to germany! main lebih banyak snow there and go skiing I suppose!more important, beta mahu makan sedap! anyone who's already waiting for my presence there?? Mr. Chef, perhaps? sile angkat tangan :P hopefully my flight won't be canceled.

note: White Christmas would definitely be nice, but come on. it's early December.

Spill the guts, not

Everyone sees who I appear to be

but only a few know the real me

you only see what I choose to show

there's so much behind this smile

you don't even know.

I don't spill the guts. At least not to everyone. It's not easy to smile when you don't feel like smiling, it's hard to laugh when you don't even feel like it and it's not even fun to admit to something which is not. 

Life is plain. I don't even have anything worth to post. So, I simply write anything I feel like writing. I'm just so bored. Internet connection is shoot. One time it's there, the other time it isn't. And, my fingers itch, begging me to tap something on the key board, and so I write. Anything that comes to my mind. LOL~

I do have assignment, and lots of readings to do. But, I just don't have the urge to do them. Gosh! What is wrong with you, Is? Mr. Conscience, come and pay me a visit please.. pretty please with sugar on top~ Do stay longer this time, make sure I finish my assignment, which will shortly due.

When she's lazy...

she's got talent kn? nice one! ulala~

Yes! That's me:)

These are some drawings from Is that I scanned. This is what happen when she is too lazy to do her assignment... she told me that she wanna draw something 4 me...but that is just a lame excuse for her so that she wont be scolded by me..she has an awful lot of homework and assignments actually.. Nevertheless, she's got some talent. She likes drawing, especially 'manga' characters like the first one up there. nice kn?huhu...



*baby jangan la malas sgt buat keje. klau malas buat, nnt abg xnk bwk baby pegi budapest ngn vienna, br baby tau! Anyways, thanks for the cute drawings! :)



-danny-

White, white uhh and white, pink and black

    Blog time again! and need I to remind you, my blog is ZzzZZzz. Might wanna catch up new movies rather than gluing your eyes here. haha..

    I'm tired today. Really really do. Been thinking too much, I suppose. Trying so hard to do my assignment actually, it's soooo confusing. I managed to get some advices from few friends and lecturers though! Thanks friends and lecturers! :) 

   Moving on to something related to the title. haha! I thought nobody gives a damn about it but turns out that people or should I say girls do give a damn. It's the colour of my scarf, that's what I'm talking about! haha.. For the umpteenth times, again today there is still somebody telling me that she realised that I've never wore other than white, black and pink scarfs. Come to think about it, it's kinda embarrassing. Really. Entah entah, people think that I'm so lazy that I've never washed my scarf or something. haha! I did, okay! I just think that it's easy to wear white because it matches any colour of clothes I'm wearing. Same goes to black. But I never really like wearing black as I feel that it makes me look dark. I usually wear black when I'm wearing black or red clothes. I just think that red really should go together with black, don't you think so? and why pink? Because I love pink and many of my clothes are pink! Pink is just sooooo fantastic! fabulous! FANTABULOUS! 

mama, kakak, abang and of course I am the one in pink :)

    I remember 1 time, when I was still in secondary school. I have quite a range of pink clothes, shirts, dresses, you name it! That I wore pink almost everyday. Mind you, I changed my clothes everyday but of course, you understand why pink everyday kan? Until at 1 point, my friend, I think asked me, "Don't you change your cloth??" and I was like, OMG! seriously?? This kind of question had never crossed my mind. I mean, if you could realise that I'm wearing pink everyday, how could you not realise that they were different pink everyday?? huhuk.. It was humiliating, definitely. Though, I don't blame them because, it was totally obvious what colour of baju I'm wearing everyday however people, they look but they don't see. And of course, not that they touched if not, they'll know the materials were different, how come they were the same clothes. Right? Haha..

My pink adidas!

I learnt my mistakes. I still wear pink but not everyday. But my problem now is, I like to wear white tudung and I'm wearing it almost everyday. Did i say 'it'? I mean 'them', because I do change my scarf and I have almost 7 white scarves. Really.Guess I haven't completely learn my lesson :P

"It's beyond repair, really!"

   For those who are reading this, "Achtung!" an early warning, my writing is plain boring. Seriously. I'm just not a good writer de facto but somehow I just feel like writing. So, you guys might wanna think twice before reading further. Almost everything I wrote was boring stuffs, just because. 

   Today was nothing much. Same old, same old. Went to class, and uh, went to the library for the first time in this second year! :) Did I mention second year? huhu~ I'm not a fan of the library and obviously the books. I only go to the library when I have to, certainly when I have assignments to be handed in, other than that time, seems impossible for anyone to see me there. What a lazy bear! Forgot to mention, I'm lazy and I'm huge, that's what makes me a lazy bear. But, I did borrow 9 books from the library just now! What a number, right?? 1 point added back! Yay me!

   Ok, enough bout that. I went to the library and while using the self check machine, I saw my reflection and it was horrible, really! haha! I can only laugh for sure. I can't remember when was the last time I look fab. I am that serabai, ok. Asked my friend who had kindly accompanied me to the library, "Don't you think I look serabai?". She is a good and nice friend. She is the kind of person who doesn't know how to judge people and teramatlah susah to even hear her say something unkind to anyone. So, you can definitely think what her answer was la kan? Thanks, babe. It was very nice of her but apparently, I knew how I looked and I don't really care, I think. I do feel inferior sometime. It would be a lie if I tell you I don't. I'm a girl after all. But, I don't know. Most of the time, I would tell people that my look and my serabai-ness is totally beyond repair. Pfftt! I'm angry, yes! with myself. And again, simply because.

   Nevertheless, I consider myself lucky. Very very lucky. No matter how bad I am or how terrible I look like, I still have family that loves and cares about me. They never treated me differently. I still have Danny who wants me as bad as before, who loves me the way I am. My friends are still my friends. And of course, I still have God with me :) He never gave His blessing to people based on their looks.

   " Kalau Is cantik and pandai bergaya, mesti syg lagi suke bawak Is jumpa kawan-kawan syg kan? At least, takde la syg segan sangat bawak Is kan."

   "Takde la, to me biarla kecantikan syg tu abg sorang je punya." (He always tells me that I am beautiful, but well, it's kinda embarassing to write it here and let the world read it kan? as if people read this :p)

Note: Thank God! Thanks family! and Thanks, hunnybee!
Love, you love me not because I am beautiful, I'm beautiful because you love me. You make me feel beautiful :) How I miss my family especially my parents and you right now!

~Purple Sky~

Bonjour! C'est moi encore! Comment allez vous? haha..ni french. cnne korg nk sebut, ikut suke korg la.haha.. tp xde pape kaitan pn ngn entry ni. just nk show op je.haha :P

actually dis entry is about a new album that I downloaded just 2 days ago entitled 'Born Free'. Its from Kid Rock, the renown 'american bad-ass'(ass die busuk kot), 'rap rock' singer-songwriter who was once femes for having a scandal with a Baywatch makchicks, Pamela Anderson(ulala~ :P). b4 dis I xpnh pn nk dgr lagu Kid Rock ni sbb genre music dia ni pelik sket. dia mix hiphop/rap ngn country rock. so lagu dia jadi lebih kurang mcm bubur pulut itam campur bubur durian la. Sedap for some people, but a recipe of disaster for others. for me the later.haha.. but dis album is totaly different. I love every single word in every single song in dis album. dis album's genre is country/blues rock n roll. and some riffs in dis album were taken from Metallica!fuhh.. Martina McBride, Sheryl Crow and T.I. were also included in dis album. They sing along with Kid in some of the songs n helped Kid created the album. Chili Peppers drummer Chad Smith, Los Lobos guitarist David Hidalgo, and Heartbreakers keyboardist Benmont Tench take the place of Kid’s typical Twisted Brown Trucker backing band. ahh...cut the crap..who cares sape buat album ni ke hape ke kn.. so back to my point, dis album mmg best lah. Tiap2 ari smbil jln pegi/balik klas, mesti dgr album ni. so you guys kena try dgr. klau korg xbiase dgr lagu cmni, pe slhnye korg give it a try kn. its worth it...really...

p/s: I have something 4 my baby... "if i'm gonna live till i'm 50, i'm gonna need you by my side. coz I don't wanna dance without you with me, into the purple sky....", quoted from track no.4-Purple Sky-

I love you more n more day by day, sweetie pie~ mmmmuaxx:-*

Purple Sky

-danny-

so much of the case of sour grapes

   I was reading some articles on the net, that somehow when I read certain things or anything that other people wrote I began to feel envious. I began to question myself, why can't I be as good as them? Why am I not like them? why my life can't be like them? why can't I be more like them? Pfftt! I hate it when I start to feel like this and I just hate it each time my mind starts to bombard me with these sorts of questions. What is wrong with me??

   I guess I'm not the only one who feels like this, right? I mean, we are human, with lots of feelings and of course one of them is being ENVY. One of the deadly sins huh? Why one of the deadly sins? Simply because it is the reason as to why some of us are so unhappy with their lives. Thinking that the fate hasn't been so kind to us as it has been to someone else. So, does it mean those that envy people are bad people? Hell no! If not, I myself will absolutely be one of those bad people and I don't think of myself as a bad person. Well, the feelings of envy doesn't come from hating other people (to some, I guess) but I realised that it actually stems from the conflicts we have within ourselves which is the inferiority feelings we have or experience upon seeing someone else is doing better than us. Or maybe its not because seeing somebody else doing better than us. Maybe it's a result of seeing that particular someone reminds us of what kind of person we are or we are not, that we are no good and not as good as that person is. Our mind is just too complicated, isn't it? It's not that we want ourselves to think that way but we just couldn't help it.

   So, how do we avoid this? Or maybe we just can't avoid ourselves from being envious. What can we do? Have to try building up our confidence. It's not an easy thing to do especially when confidence can't be built in a fortnight. We have to work for it. Get your lazy ass up and have a Go! And yeah, bear in mind, we are human. We all have weak points and we all might envy others at some points of our lives but what differentiates a strong person from a weak person is that the first will use the feelings of envy as a motive to make bigger achievements while the other person will shove the envy feelings deep inside him along with the big pile of suppressed emotions he has and voila!, give yourselves more tense and burdens. But, it'll definitely be worst if he/she uses this feeling as an excuse to do something bad or to harm others. Please don't, it won't benefit you in any kind of way pun. You'll just have the sense of satisfaction and that's about it, full stop. One brilliant way is to think that if you feel like you are lacking of something, there are still somebody out there who are less fortunate than you that you should be grateful for what God has given you. Be it material comforts or talents whatsoever. Try doing this whenever this sort of feelings fogged your mind,  it helps. And one more thing,  feelings of envy isn't really that bad IF envious is taken as something constructive rather than making it one kind of distraction (as if we don't have enough distraction in our life already, kan?).

Note: easy to talk than to do, I know but still, we have got to try it because we, the envious people.

When I'm With You

bosan...malas...penat...ngantok(bler bukak buku)haha... so i decided to google something other than intellectual things aka boring stuff. then I came across a video clip of a band that I'm not familiar with. but I kinda like the sound of this band's song bcoz it sumhow portrays how I feel when I'm not with my sweet baby~

since my gurl ni ade blog n I'm her 'so-called' secretary of pictures of her blog ni, so y shudn't I post a video clip as well kan? its about how I feel bout her gak anyways..nahnahnah~








p/s: baby, this song is for you. I love you so much n i really2 miss everything about you.mmmmmuakkss:-*

-danny-

Partner In Crime

AJK mengangkut barang (thumbs up! you've earned yourself a new title!)

   

   I'm in the mood for shopping! Unfortunately, *turn left and right* I don't have my shopping partner! huhuk.. Where are you when I need you the most? At least it is one of the occasions when I really really need you.. You'll be very very extremely helpful if you were here.. It's just no fun walking and browsing  here and there alone without you being the little devil (of course, a cute lil' devil laa..) 'helping' me making my decision which is undoubtedly to spend my money very 'wisely'. It is consider wisely as I'll end up buying things that are useful for me. Being the cheapskate person that I am, it always takes me a very long time to decide on buying something until at last I will tell myself that I won't be needing that particular item and it's such a waste of money (even though I've been craving for that thing for a looOooOong time or I adore it soOoo soOoo much!) then place it back where I took it before. But somehow I feel that now I'm in the mood for a shopping spree! Waaaaa! It's almost Christmas and well, it is so tempting looking at those SALE and DISCOUNT signs! But having only angel on my right shoulder, nak keluar pegi town pun malas, tengok barang yang dah lama teringin pun jadi tak bernafsu.. In fact, I already took something for myself dah pun tadi, ingat nak beli la present for myself since it has been quite sometime since I last shopping and I certainly could use a new cloth, maklumlaa, dah 'sihat'. But, I wondered around lama gel, just enough time for me to change my mind that I eventually put the knit wear back.*sigh*  If only you were here, mesti ade mood nak g beli barang, tengok barang, window shopping. It will be nice for you either, I mean you'll enjoy going out shopping with me cause I know you like shopping too kan?? and we'll both enjoy each other's company and how could you not enjoy carrying all the shopping bags kan? After all, they all ours, right? mesti banyak hasil kite kan kalau kite kua shopping same2?? huhu~

those bags are his! Never thought a guy could be that shopaholic kan?? :P

thought it suits me, but it doesn't

hugging and taking picture won't waste any of my money, aite?

nash, akak, me and miowmiow after we did some shopping at Cadbury World, Birmingham

note: esok raye! kan best kalau I can be with my family and Miowmiow tomorrow to celebrate the special day :(

Saye sangat sibuk! *huh*

Note: Those 'you' in the schedule above are referring to abah, mama, my siblings and of course, Encik Boyfriend!

taboo!

   This bitterness will acutely strike me again, I know it will (I'm always victimised by this). I wanna sulk but to whom? I wanna shout, "Screw u!" but what are the aftermaths? *hukk* Zip it, Is. I cursed enough. Cukup la noo..Tried to cheer myself up, so I told Dannymiowmiow,"I wanna go home!" (impossible). "I want u!", I still haven't give up(obviously negative as I meant right now) and so I continued crying for quite sometime before I completely stopped.

   Cheer me, cheer me up.. Abruptly, this came into my mind and hammered me! I recalled! "saya mahu! saya mahu! saya mahu Taboo! yayy!" suke! suke!

and you will be playing it with me!

Eskem di Prague

Yes, definitely you! Jangan nak purak-purak makan eskem plak! *hikk* I won't accept any other answers except "YES". Pleaseeee...Pretty pleaseeee~

Tak kire ah! nak gak main nate ni! *hukk* leh eyh??? leh eyh?? leh eyh??

p/s: This game is not meant to be played alone, two won't work either. So, apparently akak and some others that will be asked nicely before being force later on (supposing that puppy face doesn't work) will be playing too! Yeayy!

Ich kann deutsch

   I'm such a big mouth, true indeed! I describe myself as someone who really loves to learn languages sometime. Indubitably a good thing, right? Well, I would say, it actually depends on what or which part of the language that particular someone is learning. Same rule applies to me, of course. 

Deutschland! Deutschland!

   To cut the story short, it was at the end of Methodology class when I obviously felt extremely excited (I'm going home, duhh~) that I somehow said something in Deutsch in which I learnt from my sister and Danny. Suddenly, the thing I said has caught my lecturer's attention that he looked at me *surprised*, and smile while asking me, "Sprechen Sie Deutsch?". Not that I understand Deutsch well but I think I can guess that he was asking me whether I know Deutsch or something about Deutsch. And I was like, " Errr..." ( I'm not sure whether to nod or to shake my head) "maybe just a little", I said. He continued smiling and translated what I've just said in German Language and waited for me to respond. I was having a monologue with myself that time that I straight away answer him YES, and he laughed at me. Why?? I should have answered him, "Ja" instead of "Yes" I think. And I still have no idea why he laughed at me back then. However, what bothers me the most is how can I not remember that he knows Deutsch and why can't I be more careful before I cursed " Heilige Scheiße!" amid the lesson. 

   I guess, what's done is done. Luckily Mark tu sempoi and lepek, buatnye he curse me back, xke haru if I dunno what to curse back :P *wink* (but actually, if I were needed to curse back, I think I would be able to do so because, I have quite a list of curse words or taboos in Deutsch). 

Gambar kenangan bersame cikgu-cikgu Deutsch saye (on the way back from Prague)

Moral of the story: Di mana ade kemahuan, di situ ade highway.. When there's a will which is in my case willing to vary my curse words, there's a way, bebeh! 

as i succumb to boredom :P

What else could I be doing instead of crapping?? hehehe.. sometimes I just feel like I'm sooo good at it.. hehehe.. I was so bored that my extremely ingenious brain could come out with this kind of conversation with Miowmiow yang of course has to entertain and bear with me :)

me: mau dgr gossip?

busook: ape cte?

(and there goes the goosip *bla bla bla* -bear in mind, its not about u, just bout some celebs which I read on the net recently)

busook: leh keje melody syg ni.

me: haa, tula.. dulu dapat offer masscom tapi abah xbagi. Die xnampak talent is ni. Kalau x, dah kawen personaliti TB dah awak tu tau..pastu kwn baby mst ckp, "untung Danny, dapat kawen dgn awek msuk TB 2..

busook: yeke? syg xmau abg a kot..

me: ape name bini die, Miss Is??Miss Is yg wat lagu dgn Neyo 2 (xnk dgn colby o'donis). haha..mau je!

busook: perggh! sampai cmtu skali? mmg xde chance a abg.. huhu..

me: haha.. ade2, sbb muke syg cm Johnny Depp.. huhu.. i loike! dh padan sgt a kite, artis sme artis.. huhu..

busook: ah?? mne ade.. pe a syg ni.. abg kt skul pun xfemes langsung.. (bf sy mmg ske merendah diri.. kdg2 a :P). Xdenye celeb cam syg nak kt abg..

me: 2 ****** (da name was quite close to an artist's name) yg penyanyi pun mau, ngade baby ni. alaaa.. lgpun, is ni artis rancangan terjah kat melodi je pun.. hahah.. bajet cam siti nurhaliza..hehehhe..

busook: mane tau..

me: tapi is nyanyi dgn Neyo a, siti dgn SM Salim je.. :P

busook: huhu.. (xterkate ape, mungkin sebab dulu he was one of siti's fans kot :P)

me: nanti Neyo nyanyi kt is, "hey sexy girl from Keeeeedah (ala2 lagu Miss Nina dgn Colby O' Donis-What you waiting for). hehek..

busook: haha.. kedah.. hahahahha~

Dehek Ismatul?? hahah..There goes my story about kemengarutanku kerana kebosanan..As if I am too free, padahal I kinda have lots of kerja and readings to do.. Ismatul, ngapain kamu begini?? yokk kite buat reading! zZzZzz..

loyal Mister Busook who always has to layan me (whether he likes it or not cause i'm the boss :P)

Note: Saye rindu mama, abah, my family and ofcoz you, mister!

Once upon a windy summer...

Westgate Garden

   Going through my pictures today reminds me of the great time we had during last summer holiday. Yeah, it was a windy and dreary summer at times(that's just how the weather in the uk) is. So yeah! lets go on a trip down memory lane! It was here, in Canterbury when the love was in the air *hihik* (of course la, Dannymiowmiow was here that time) and the Westgate Garden was the attestant of our love since that was the place we kept on going each time we went out to town (tempat picnic makan Subway almost everyday, tempat camwhore and of course tempat dating). It was a nice place especially during spring and summer. Obviosly sebab banyak bunge however, I've never been there during spring (gedik, pegi mane pun nak g dgn Dannymiowmiow gak padahal town sendiri kot) *haishh*.

me n u, just us two

   

kegemukan kelihatan di situ

And i remember that time, we went out at noon and had our lunch at Kashmir Tandoori first to satisfy our craving for 'maple' food but it was a higher standard 'maple' though with no big screen TV for people to watch football (kalau ade, memang xberjalan dah le ritu). Next, we went for a walk around the Canterbury town, doing some window shopping until alas we went on the bridge in Canterbury town where we saw a few numbers of rowing boats full of tourists boarding. Since punting is in my to-do-with-Danny wish list, we decided to be on one of those boats for the adventurous historical Canterbury river punting (checked!). It was fun and the boatman was humorous too. Lots of stories and places were then revealed during the river punting including the place where people who were suspected to be witches were drown in the river. According to the boatman, those people were drown in the water for an hour just to see whether they are witches or they are not. If they didn't die, of course they are witches and so will be burnt to death but if somehow they did die, they will be buried in the cathedral as in their beliefs, those people who are buried there will be sent straight away to heaven (konon nye nak tebus kesalahan dorg yg salah anggap kt si mati a). What an a**hole.

kakak, if you read this, do come here summer bile-bile, kite g sini!

utk pasangan yang xmampu ke Venice, leh la g naik boat kt belakang kitorg tu, that one u guys leh je naik 2-4 persons. But I'm not sure whether ade any historical stories ke x yg ni.

And so, this is 1 part of the story of my  last summer hols. Will be bringing out and showing more (walaupun xde org nk tgk! yay!)

p/s: Danny, summer ni kite nak jalan mane lak eyh?? hehe

and so...

 mama and abah

   ...when I'm dead bored, I will always try to find something to fill my time in (especially when I have no one to talk to, mind you that I'm the kind of person who just can't stop talking). I know i'm just sooooo annoying. Tried to talk less sometimes but then people will start to ask me, "nape diam je?", " kau ok x?". (but most of the time, its just me that couldn't last being silent, that's why :p). So, back to the story, one of my ways of killing the time is by finding something that can humor me(on the net of course). And so, these are the things that has caught my attention:

1. All men are born free and equal. If they go and get married that's their own fault.

2. Courtship: Is like looking at the beautiful photos in a seed catalog. Marriage: Is what actually comes up in your garden.

3. Everything I owe, I owe because of my wife.

      4.  Wife:         'What are you doing?' 

        Husband:     Nothing.

        Wife:         'Nothing...?  You've been reading our marriage certificate for an hour.'

        Husband:  ;    'I was looking for the expiry date.' 

     So, here are some questions. Is being married a bad thing? Is marriage so dreadful? Why is marriage so difficult? Here are the reasons I can come up with (after reading some articles out of curiousity, of course). Because even though you are now living as one, you are still two different people with different wants and needs. Because two becoming one is extremely demanding. Know the three-legged race, when two people tie your inner legs together and try to run in harmony? Challenging and difficult. You must work as a team and surrender personal ego. You have to be tolerant. As a saying goes, marriage is a gamble, no one will know what will happen in their married lives, be it if he/she is a fortune teller (if they really are someone who claims the ability to predict the future, why are they still a fortune teller and not the prime minister or Bill Gates?).

Success in marriage doesn’t belong to those who throw the best wedding party, but rather to those who practice at the art of marriage. 

   For a marriage to be successful, two people have to work hard to find a formula that works for them. That means sacrifice, kindness, caring, patience and acceptance, but occasionally it will mean going toe to toe until you reach an understanding. Truth is, marriage is difficult. However, that doesn't mean that it's impossible, right? I know that I'm not yet married and I'm not someone wise to be talking about this matter (since I haven't experience married life) but I have parents, grandparents and I've seen many couples that have been married for a long time and they are still happy and want to be with each other so badly and even I sometimes can see and feel the sparks between them (usually bile kite tgk dorg ni kite rase sweet sgt). But at least this is how I feel about marriage, it's as same as life, never been easy and never intended to be. Life is difficult, it requires a lot of works and problem solving. So, move ahead, try solving the problems rather than finding an easy way out. Marriage is the same, accept the fact that it is more than just falling in love, it demands an awful lot of works but after all the efforts and hassles, you'll know that  it is more than worth the struggles.

   Again, I'm not married yet but I intended to be married someday, with my very special someone of course. It's easy to talk about things especially something we haven't gone through, I know. So, pardon me. This is just what I personally think. Whatever it is, I hope me and my significant other will be able to handle whatever that comes in our life later on and be just like our parents, happily married and blessed with good children (I'm definitely one of them). haha.. And I guess that I'm going to be just like abah, very very very clingy because that's what I am now (ask Danny, he knows and he wouldn't deny it). Bear with me ye, darl. I'm happy now but of course we have been into a lot of hurdles but at the end of the day, we always say that everything we've been through, its really really worth it. At least I feel that:) Thank God for this wonderful guy You've sent me.

   To those guys out there, don't be afraid or tremble whenever you found jokes like those up there because not only marriage, nothing in life is ever easy.

hope to be like mama and abah, Insyallah :)

note: mama and abah, semoga mendapat haji yang mabrur and always be in good health! love you both! *hugs* xoxo~