Spill the guts, not

Everyone sees who I appear to be

but only a few know the real me

you only see what I choose to show

there's so much behind this smile

you don't even know.

I don't spill the guts. At least not to everyone. It's not easy to smile when you don't feel like smiling, it's hard to laugh when you don't even feel like it and it's not even fun to admit to something which is not. 

Life is plain. I don't even have anything worth to post. So, I simply write anything I feel like writing. I'm just so bored. Internet connection is shoot. One time it's there, the other time it isn't. And, my fingers itch, begging me to tap something on the key board, and so I write. Anything that comes to my mind. LOL~

I do have assignment, and lots of readings to do. But, I just don't have the urge to do them. Gosh! What is wrong with you, Is? Mr. Conscience, come and pay me a visit please.. pretty please with sugar on top~ Do stay longer this time, make sure I finish my assignment, which will shortly due.

When she's lazy...

she's got talent kn? nice one! ulala~

Yes! That's me:)

These are some drawings from Is that I scanned. This is what happen when she is too lazy to do her assignment... she told me that she wanna draw something 4 me...but that is just a lame excuse for her so that she wont be scolded by me..she has an awful lot of homework and assignments actually.. Nevertheless, she's got some talent. She likes drawing, especially 'manga' characters like the first one up there. nice kn?huhu...



*baby jangan la malas sgt buat keje. klau malas buat, nnt abg xnk bwk baby pegi budapest ngn vienna, br baby tau! Anyways, thanks for the cute drawings! :)



-danny-

White, white uhh and white, pink and black

    Blog time again! and need I to remind you, my blog is ZzzZZzz. Might wanna catch up new movies rather than gluing your eyes here. haha..

    I'm tired today. Really really do. Been thinking too much, I suppose. Trying so hard to do my assignment actually, it's soooo confusing. I managed to get some advices from few friends and lecturers though! Thanks friends and lecturers! :) 

   Moving on to something related to the title. haha! I thought nobody gives a damn about it but turns out that people or should I say girls do give a damn. It's the colour of my scarf, that's what I'm talking about! haha.. For the umpteenth times, again today there is still somebody telling me that she realised that I've never wore other than white, black and pink scarfs. Come to think about it, it's kinda embarrassing. Really. Entah entah, people think that I'm so lazy that I've never washed my scarf or something. haha! I did, okay! I just think that it's easy to wear white because it matches any colour of clothes I'm wearing. Same goes to black. But I never really like wearing black as I feel that it makes me look dark. I usually wear black when I'm wearing black or red clothes. I just think that red really should go together with black, don't you think so? and why pink? Because I love pink and many of my clothes are pink! Pink is just sooooo fantastic! fabulous! FANTABULOUS! 

mama, kakak, abang and of course I am the one in pink :)

    I remember 1 time, when I was still in secondary school. I have quite a range of pink clothes, shirts, dresses, you name it! That I wore pink almost everyday. Mind you, I changed my clothes everyday but of course, you understand why pink everyday kan? Until at 1 point, my friend, I think asked me, "Don't you change your cloth??" and I was like, OMG! seriously?? This kind of question had never crossed my mind. I mean, if you could realise that I'm wearing pink everyday, how could you not realise that they were different pink everyday?? huhuk.. It was humiliating, definitely. Though, I don't blame them because, it was totally obvious what colour of baju I'm wearing everyday however people, they look but they don't see. And of course, not that they touched if not, they'll know the materials were different, how come they were the same clothes. Right? Haha..

My pink adidas!

I learnt my mistakes. I still wear pink but not everyday. But my problem now is, I like to wear white tudung and I'm wearing it almost everyday. Did i say 'it'? I mean 'them', because I do change my scarf and I have almost 7 white scarves. Really.Guess I haven't completely learn my lesson :P

"It's beyond repair, really!"

   For those who are reading this, "Achtung!" an early warning, my writing is plain boring. Seriously. I'm just not a good writer de facto but somehow I just feel like writing. So, you guys might wanna think twice before reading further. Almost everything I wrote was boring stuffs, just because. 

   Today was nothing much. Same old, same old. Went to class, and uh, went to the library for the first time in this second year! :) Did I mention second year? huhu~ I'm not a fan of the library and obviously the books. I only go to the library when I have to, certainly when I have assignments to be handed in, other than that time, seems impossible for anyone to see me there. What a lazy bear! Forgot to mention, I'm lazy and I'm huge, that's what makes me a lazy bear. But, I did borrow 9 books from the library just now! What a number, right?? 1 point added back! Yay me!

   Ok, enough bout that. I went to the library and while using the self check machine, I saw my reflection and it was horrible, really! haha! I can only laugh for sure. I can't remember when was the last time I look fab. I am that serabai, ok. Asked my friend who had kindly accompanied me to the library, "Don't you think I look serabai?". She is a good and nice friend. She is the kind of person who doesn't know how to judge people and teramatlah susah to even hear her say something unkind to anyone. So, you can definitely think what her answer was la kan? Thanks, babe. It was very nice of her but apparently, I knew how I looked and I don't really care, I think. I do feel inferior sometime. It would be a lie if I tell you I don't. I'm a girl after all. But, I don't know. Most of the time, I would tell people that my look and my serabai-ness is totally beyond repair. Pfftt! I'm angry, yes! with myself. And again, simply because.

   Nevertheless, I consider myself lucky. Very very lucky. No matter how bad I am or how terrible I look like, I still have family that loves and cares about me. They never treated me differently. I still have Danny who wants me as bad as before, who loves me the way I am. My friends are still my friends. And of course, I still have God with me :) He never gave His blessing to people based on their looks.

   " Kalau Is cantik and pandai bergaya, mesti syg lagi suke bawak Is jumpa kawan-kawan syg kan? At least, takde la syg segan sangat bawak Is kan."

   "Takde la, to me biarla kecantikan syg tu abg sorang je punya." (He always tells me that I am beautiful, but well, it's kinda embarassing to write it here and let the world read it kan? as if people read this :p)

Note: Thank God! Thanks family! and Thanks, hunnybee!
Love, you love me not because I am beautiful, I'm beautiful because you love me. You make me feel beautiful :) How I miss my family especially my parents and you right now!

~Purple Sky~

Bonjour! C'est moi encore! Comment allez vous? haha..ni french. cnne korg nk sebut, ikut suke korg la.haha.. tp xde pape kaitan pn ngn entry ni. just nk show op je.haha :P

actually dis entry is about a new album that I downloaded just 2 days ago entitled 'Born Free'. Its from Kid Rock, the renown 'american bad-ass'(ass die busuk kot), 'rap rock' singer-songwriter who was once femes for having a scandal with a Baywatch makchicks, Pamela Anderson(ulala~ :P). b4 dis I xpnh pn nk dgr lagu Kid Rock ni sbb genre music dia ni pelik sket. dia mix hiphop/rap ngn country rock. so lagu dia jadi lebih kurang mcm bubur pulut itam campur bubur durian la. Sedap for some people, but a recipe of disaster for others. for me the later.haha.. but dis album is totaly different. I love every single word in every single song in dis album. dis album's genre is country/blues rock n roll. and some riffs in dis album were taken from Metallica!fuhh.. Martina McBride, Sheryl Crow and T.I. were also included in dis album. They sing along with Kid in some of the songs n helped Kid created the album. Chili Peppers drummer Chad Smith, Los Lobos guitarist David Hidalgo, and Heartbreakers keyboardist Benmont Tench take the place of Kid’s typical Twisted Brown Trucker backing band. ahh...cut the crap..who cares sape buat album ni ke hape ke kn.. so back to my point, dis album mmg best lah. Tiap2 ari smbil jln pegi/balik klas, mesti dgr album ni. so you guys kena try dgr. klau korg xbiase dgr lagu cmni, pe slhnye korg give it a try kn. its worth it...really...

p/s: I have something 4 my baby... "if i'm gonna live till i'm 50, i'm gonna need you by my side. coz I don't wanna dance without you with me, into the purple sky....", quoted from track no.4-Purple Sky-

I love you more n more day by day, sweetie pie~ mmmmuaxx:-*

Purple Sky

-danny-

so much of the case of sour grapes

   I was reading some articles on the net, that somehow when I read certain things or anything that other people wrote I began to feel envious. I began to question myself, why can't I be as good as them? Why am I not like them? why my life can't be like them? why can't I be more like them? Pfftt! I hate it when I start to feel like this and I just hate it each time my mind starts to bombard me with these sorts of questions. What is wrong with me??

   I guess I'm not the only one who feels like this, right? I mean, we are human, with lots of feelings and of course one of them is being ENVY. One of the deadly sins huh? Why one of the deadly sins? Simply because it is the reason as to why some of us are so unhappy with their lives. Thinking that the fate hasn't been so kind to us as it has been to someone else. So, does it mean those that envy people are bad people? Hell no! If not, I myself will absolutely be one of those bad people and I don't think of myself as a bad person. Well, the feelings of envy doesn't come from hating other people (to some, I guess) but I realised that it actually stems from the conflicts we have within ourselves which is the inferiority feelings we have or experience upon seeing someone else is doing better than us. Or maybe its not because seeing somebody else doing better than us. Maybe it's a result of seeing that particular someone reminds us of what kind of person we are or we are not, that we are no good and not as good as that person is. Our mind is just too complicated, isn't it? It's not that we want ourselves to think that way but we just couldn't help it.

   So, how do we avoid this? Or maybe we just can't avoid ourselves from being envious. What can we do? Have to try building up our confidence. It's not an easy thing to do especially when confidence can't be built in a fortnight. We have to work for it. Get your lazy ass up and have a Go! And yeah, bear in mind, we are human. We all have weak points and we all might envy others at some points of our lives but what differentiates a strong person from a weak person is that the first will use the feelings of envy as a motive to make bigger achievements while the other person will shove the envy feelings deep inside him along with the big pile of suppressed emotions he has and voila!, give yourselves more tense and burdens. But, it'll definitely be worst if he/she uses this feeling as an excuse to do something bad or to harm others. Please don't, it won't benefit you in any kind of way pun. You'll just have the sense of satisfaction and that's about it, full stop. One brilliant way is to think that if you feel like you are lacking of something, there are still somebody out there who are less fortunate than you that you should be grateful for what God has given you. Be it material comforts or talents whatsoever. Try doing this whenever this sort of feelings fogged your mind,  it helps. And one more thing,  feelings of envy isn't really that bad IF envious is taken as something constructive rather than making it one kind of distraction (as if we don't have enough distraction in our life already, kan?).

Note: easy to talk than to do, I know but still, we have got to try it because we, the envious people.

When I'm With You

bosan...malas...penat...ngantok(bler bukak buku)haha... so i decided to google something other than intellectual things aka boring stuff. then I came across a video clip of a band that I'm not familiar with. but I kinda like the sound of this band's song bcoz it sumhow portrays how I feel when I'm not with my sweet baby~

since my gurl ni ade blog n I'm her 'so-called' secretary of pictures of her blog ni, so y shudn't I post a video clip as well kan? its about how I feel bout her gak anyways..nahnahnah~








p/s: baby, this song is for you. I love you so much n i really2 miss everything about you.mmmmmuakkss:-*

-danny-