behind every little things

" there's a little truth behind every 'JUST KIDDING',

a little knowledge behind every ' I DON'T KNOW',

a little emotion behind every ' I DON'T CARE',

and a little pain behind 'IT'S OKAY' "

Road not taken

It is in every little girls dreams to be Cinderella, Belle, Snow White, Rapunzel, Ariel, and the list goes on.

When every little girl wanted to be a princess, I kinda hoped to become a vampire.

When most of the girls wanted to dress like princesses, I wanted to cut my hair short and wear shirt with baggy shorts.

 

identity crisis

Gosh! I've been thinking lately. a lot. so not Ismatul, right? yeah, so not. Its giving me headache. guess this is the stage where we are trying to figure out what we want to be, what should we be and what we want others to see us as and whats not. its annoying you see. on the second thought, not really annoying. its actually confusing. is it important for us to have an identity? duhh.. need me to answer that? before, i don't really care about this. i mean, just be whatever you want to be as long as you are real. you are not being fake. you are being who you are. but i guess it doesn't work that way. we are living in this world with others too, so we have to consider people around us as well. not that you have to be someone people around you want you to be. pretty confusing huh? lets just put it this way, be someone you think you want to be and you want others to see as but just don't annoy people and don't mess with others. in other words, jadilah apepun just xpayah nak susahkan idup orang lain. However, it is advisable for us to be good people. that way, we'll live a happy life and we wont regret it in our lives later on. don't you think so? and one more thing, along the way we can learn things from others' experiences. i mean, look at your nearest role models. example, parents. do you want to be like them? in my case, yes. i  want to be like them. we can learn from them, can we? learn how to behave, how to socialise and so on. if you want people to respect you, be and act as someone who you think deserve to be respected. well, respect is something you have to earn, not to demand. i'm not writing here to nag or give advice to anyone. more like i'm talking to myself. i've been thinking a lot lately, yet i don't know where to spill all my thoughts. guess, this is when a blog can be useful to me huh? gosh, i'm missing my family so bad, one of the reasons as to why i've been doing a lot of thinking. okla, makan time!

xoxo.

Al-fatihah

I am not happy.. Hukk :( feels like I have tonnes of probs. miss my family at the same time. feel bad about myself. scared. worried. *sigh* Dear Allah, help me go through all this. help me.

Give me Ya Allah

Give me iman and victory

Give me Ya Allah

Give me strength to set us free

As we struggle on your path

Mujahideen

Grant us Ya Allah

The eyes to see your light

And show us Ya Allah

What is wrong and what is right

As we walk along your path

 

Note: Al-fatihah buat arwah Mas Afzal Masarudin yang baru saja kembali ke rahmatullah, semoga Allah merahmati rohnya. InsyaAllah..

moh kite!

     Yayy! Its holiday! finally :) I'm very very happy. the term has come to an end. Bid goodbye to the first term and HAYLOOOO winter hols! 

gosh, I'm very grateful that today went well. I guess. showed my assignment to Pam and it was good*sounds promising*, according to her. Alhamdulillah. hopefully the result will be OK too. or maybe not just OK, better than that. I hope. Mandarin test went well too. Alhamdulillah jugak! so, I'm gonna enjoy the rest of today and go to bed early because, Germany is waiting for me tomorrow! yayyy! nak pegi jalan sampai lebam then, hopefully I'll be starting up fresh for the new term, InsyaAllah :) ahh, one more good news to share, Danny has got a job interview! pray that he'll do well. and pray that Eijum (my big sister) will get the job offer from the company she went for interview. 

     And yeah, talked to my mum on the phone just now. and my lil' sister too this afternoon. I'm very happy that I talked to them. I miss them sooo much! unfortunately, my lil' sis doesn't feel well. I'll pray for your well being sis. hope you get better soon. Mama and abah, make sure both of you come and visit us here as promised. and I'm glad that u both are well and happy. Thanks for you prayer for us and Danny. we'll always mention both of u in our prayer as well.* hugsss*

   So, I already packed my things. hope that nothing is missing because I don't wanna waste my money buying those missing things in Germany. especially owing to the fact that stuffs in Germany are much more expensive compared to the stuffs in the UK. One more thing, I hope our hols' plan will go as planned. what plan? I'm not telling. I don't wanna jinx it. lols! to friends in Canterbury, see you guys in a month time! Sayonara, Canterbury! don't miss me because I'm no good to you :P

Je t'aime^^

Salut! Paris ohh Paris...romantic, beautiful, historical city? not quite so...

canon cyber-shot pn bole bokeh la....

We were there during our summer holidays 2010 before we went back to Malaysia. We spent 4 days 3 nites in the outskirt of Paris. we weren't that far from the town centre though. The famous Moulin Rouge was near by but we haven't got the chance 2 go in n watch the show as the price of the ticket was stupidly expensive(stupid bcoz I can't afford it..*sigh*).. Anyhow, Paris was really...i mean really2 'indah khabar dari rupa' *sigh lagi*... Slalu orang kate bestnye klau dapat g paris, especially klau dapat honeymoon kt paris sbb paris romantik, cantik, grand...duh~ plisss la... Yes Eiffel Tower was magnificent, BUT as we spent our time there, I realised that it was rather annoying. Every step we made, there will always be a macha or a blackie (what are u, a racist??) came to us and offered us...ermm...actually they persuaded us in the annoying kinda way to buy some key chains of Eiffel Tower and even wine from them. 1 good thing about that was, we managed to get ourselves a pretty great bargain for the key chains tho.haha.. But wait for it, as soon as you've settled your business with one macha, the other machas will come to you offering and again persuading you to buy the same things you'd just bought from his friends. That was another annoying part..haish..

The story of 'indah khabar dari rupa of Paris' didn't end there. Here comes the worst part of it, the subway in Paris was really2 horrible, smelly and so damn disgusting. It was horrible owing the fact that the service was unreachable in certain part of the city. We have to get on a bus to reach our destination. I would say, London and Munich have way better service. Another thing, when we was walking underground in the subway to get to another line service, I saw a man doing a business that was supposed to be done in the TOILET. The man took a piss at one corner while other people were rushing to get in a tram. No wonder the subways there smell like a public toilet in Malaysia..it's not too much for me to say that some people there are clearly uncivilized and are undoubtedly left out from the modernized world...aiaiai~

Okla...enuff with the nasty part of Paris. Skg nk cerita pasal pe yg bestnye Paris ni. Paris best sebab ade Disneyland!huhuhu.. tu je la yg best.. Here are some pics of me n my sweetie kat Disneyland Paris. Anyhow, it was a blast going there with my cutie girl ni. Actually Disneyland Paris is in one of her to-do-list. Wish granted...but still lots more to go ^.^ next year pnye summer hols blom decide lg nk g mane, but for sure we'll have tons of fun together again.weeehooo!~

I'm the buffest of all.muahahaha!~

those up there were some of the pictures taken when we were in Paris. Particularly at Notre Dame, The Lourve, Eiffel tower and Paris Disneyland~

-danny-

How would you describe an APPLE?

Christchurch is still close today. So it means 2 days off since yesterday. yayy me! Technically, bile kite diberikan cuti, kite mestilah menggunakan cuti itu sebaik-baiknya. So, don't bother doing your assignment. Because it's a day, it's a day, it's a holi-holiday!

*drooling my eyes* pretending not to have any assignment to be handed in next Wednesday, which is according to the Islamic and Gregorian calendar will be in 5 days time,  I began to spend my days off wisely (too long for a sentence, right? I don't care.haha).

A wisely thought question: How would you describe an apple? I came across this after reading "The Oxbridge Questions". An interesting book which I bought a long time ago at The Works, kedai buku yang sangat laa best. Buku dah nak bersawang, baru nak start baca. So, lets get back to the question.

How would you describe an apple?

From New York City to Macintosh computers, apple stands for everything from the true knowledge to all that wholesome, all in a tidy little package. A child is the 'apple of his parents' eyes'. A good kid gone rotten is described as 'a bad apple'. In fact, apples are pretty much everything you want them to be. It all depends on you and way you describe them.

Different people has different interpretation of an apple. How far is this true? if you are...

an artist, you might describe an apple as a roundish fruit, about the size of tennis ball. not quite round though. a shallow one at the bottom, deeper one at the top where the stalk is attached. some have glossy and waxy look, while others look rougher and densely coloured. vary in hue, from whitish green to golden yellow, from russet brown to bright crimson. and there goes all the colours you can and even cannot find in the world.

a mathematician, you might come out with a description from a different angle. this would be tricky and complicated because there are variable of shapes of apples likewise shapes themselves. might be simpler to describe its shape as 'apploid'. we might even be smart enough to come up with an equation for the so called apploid. but, this might provoke all the students from around the world's anger. obviously because they are now burdened with one more equation to be learnt and memorised. I know it will because I'm a student. I always blame those clever philosophers who came up with all the new findings and equations.

an organic chemist, might describe an apple as an arrangement of cellulose in cells containing water, sugars,acid,vitamins,minerals and so forth. Damn, I'm good. LOLS~ mind you, I just did something related to this for my assignment.

a mythologist, could describe an apple in many many many ways. duhh, MYTHologist. pretty much, every culture has its own special apple stories. one that I heard, Golden Apple were the fruits of the Greek Tree of Life, correct me if I'm wrong. but, definitely not Malay. not that we are being racist but, it's just that apple is not the kind of fruit that grows in Malaysia.

a greengrocer might describe apple as sweet and crisp fruit, delicious, juicy, etc.

a cook might add that apple is a versatile fruit, which can be used in many kind of dishes such as apple pie and apple crumble.

you, you know who, apple is a buah, a fruit, simple as it is :)

disappointed audience, apple might be a critical movie or theatre reviews.

Isaac Newton, its a matter of gravity.

and there are many more definitions of an apple that can be written if I am to include them here. no offense to those other people, ok?

so my point here is, different people has different school of thought. different people sees different things. hence, we should not think of ourselves as superior and that we know it all and we are always right. look at things from different point of views, you'll be surprised as I am now.

tak percaya? look back, this long entry is actually just about a fruit called 'apple'. right? *wink*

note: as for me, I think apple is a fruit which is, if taken daily, it'll ruin Doc's business! cheers!

jadual dewan makan, you are what you eat!

my food-wish list that is to be fulfilled before the end of my winter holiday, howkay??
berikut adalah kemahuan tummy beta:

• nasi beriyani
• nasi minyak
• nasi tomato
• nasi arab
• ayam masak merah (wajib)
• asam pedas pengasusfillet! 
• sambal belacan dannymiowmiow(would be nice to go with ayam berempah danny gak)
• kuah lodeh
• sambal ikan bilis/sambal tumis udang
• nasi lemak danymiowmiow
• ayam kismis (jom try wat lagi!)
• ayam black pepper(yang ni is masak :p)
• nasi goreng kampung kamu yg best itu
• ikan tige rase/sweet&sour/steam? (try wat guna pengasusfillet gak leh tak?)
• rendang ayam (kate raye krismas kan)
• padprik

 

This is what I can come up with at the moment. I might be adding more in the menu, ok. Don't worry *wink*

blessed snow

class was canceled due to the bad weather. the cancellation hurt me bad. I was upset. frustrated. furious.and there goes all the verbs in the dictionary. i'm just kidding. gile tak happy happy meal?? it wasn't a teeny weeny bit of joy that I felt. it was in fact a blessing, duhh~  they whacked me with the lucky stick this morning, i guess. and, they whacked me good yo!

I was kinda hoping for the class to be canceled today. Really. wasn't my initial intention to go to class today. but I knew I had to, since I already played truant last Friday. but luckily,  class really was canceled then! motherly instinct?? nahh.. more like, a lazy-bum-student instinct :) seronok yang tak terkata. but i did say something after knowing the whole campus was closed because of the snow. "U tutup sampai bile eyh? esok tutup lagi tak?". see, how concern I was. 

Thought of continuing my disturbed-sleep. but before I went back to sleep, thought why should I waste my effort bangun awal pagi, mandi and got dressed, right? put on my boots and...

jakun :)

asda moment :P

kejakunan makin terserlah :P

1 more week and I'll be off to germany! main lebih banyak snow there and go skiing I suppose!more important, beta mahu makan sedap! anyone who's already waiting for my presence there?? Mr. Chef, perhaps? sile angkat tangan :P hopefully my flight won't be canceled.

note: White Christmas would definitely be nice, but come on. it's early December.